2025-11-26
I really like this, I think if I am going to make something, I'm going to try to make it not needy.
I recently got back into dating! I think I made a banger profile, I think there's a little bit of everything for everyone. I've got pretty positive impressions from my friends as well, so far!
It's actually really helped my self image. I've always been very self conscious about how I look, and I think I essentially placed my best photos and videos, into one location that I narcissistically come back to, fairly often.
I don't really have many matches (I've got like, 1 match and 2 likes I think?) but honestly, I don't even really mind.
I've also noticed that I've become a lot more forward, bold even. Both when it comes to the sort of messages I send, but also in other theatres of my life. It's been nice, I'm a lot more playful, a lot more relaxed.
I have used dating apps in the past. I didn't get many matches and what matches I did get, it never went anywhere.
So I left them behind and decided to find someone in realspace but it never manifested in anything. And I think I've given it long enough, that I have to just tell myself, this isn't working.
I am using dating apps differently. I am using the free tier and I don't really have too many likes, which I love! In fact, swiping feels like work and sometimes I wish I had less likes. I feels like a morning chore, a bit of maintenace work for myself. I feel like I had more likes before ...
I'm a lot less picky. I figure I'd rather just talk to them in person to figure out if I actually like them. If I have some attraction to them and there's no red flags, I like them.
I'm also more forward. I really don't want to just ... talk to people on dating apps. I actually want to meet them and I just propose meeting fairly early into the conversation. Perhaps it's too fast for some people, that's fine. Not everything is meant to be.
In a similar vein, I think I'm just being a bit more daring (cmf. my previous self) in general. I think I compliment their looks a lot more now. I don't think it comes across the wrong way, I'm not trying to be lewd or sexual. What I want to communicate to them is that I think they're pretty and I'm attracted to them, which I think will help.
Some people have commented on a decrease in articles recently.
I still love blogging! But I'm very busy with other social activies and obligations as of late. This week especially is insane:
And honestly, I have more plans on Monday and Tuesday, perhaps even most of Wednesday.
But I have so much energy and such a lust for life, I feel so fine with all of this. I don't care for having some "me time".